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What is god?

In God on January 7, 2009 at 3:03 pm

I’m going to get right into it with a big, meaty question. Perhaps the question. What is god?

Obviously, I don’t have the answer to this question. No one does. I do, however, have some thoughts on the matter.

My understanding of god (or, if you prefer a more value-neutral term, the spirit of life) is constantly evolving. I used to believe in an anthropomorphic god in the Abrahamic tradition. Though I often use pronouns and other “humanizing language” when speaking of god, I don’t really think of god as an actual creature/person these days (not most of the time, at least).

How do I think of god, then?

Again, that’s part of what this blog is about—trying to understand just what it is that I believe. But, for the time being, I think it’s safe to say that I think of god as more of an energy, a life-force, than anything else. God is a creative force, but not necessarily a creator.

Did god create the universe? I don’t know. If god isn’t a being, if god is a creative energy, then I don’t think it’s out-of-line with my scientific and rational beliefs to say that god created the universe.

What if we think of god as the energy that caused the Big Bang? Does that mean that the universe was created by an all-powerful, all-knowing creature? Absolutely not. Does it fly in the face of science? I don’t think so, but I suppose that’s partly a matter of opinion.

Is god an external force? This is where it gets tricky. I tend to think that, no, god isn’t an outside force. God is an internal energy. God is what makes us human. God is, I suppose, the soul, whatever that means.

But, then again, god could be an external force. If you think of god as being the energy that binds the universe, then I guess god could be seen as an external force (which, I realize, sounds dangerously close to the Force).

As you can see, it’s hard to explain exactly what god is, once you give up on the notion that “he” is some kind of grandfather in the sky.

I don’t really know what god is. As you can see, my understanding of god is far from fully formed.

What I do know is that I feel an internal energy that I think of as god, when I’m experiencing moments of true inner peace. Sure, it’s probably just body chemistry doing it’s thing, but does that matter? Does it really matter whether what I think of as god is physical or metaphysical, as long as it helps me find my personal truth?

I feel god when I am at peace. When I meditated during Sunday service at the Unitarian Church of Edmonton on the weekend, I felt something like god.

I feel god during and after sex—at least when it is the kind of sex that involves an intimate and spiritual connection with my partner (i.e.: god would likely be absent from a one-night stand).

I feel god when I enjoy very good food, and when I drink good wine (or beer, or scotch, etc.). I feel god when I am driving the lonely highways of the world. And I feel god when I am experiencing the wonder of nature (perhaps especially when I am in the mountains).

Does any of this answer the question, what is god? No, I suppose not. But, then, that was never really my intention. My intention was to explore my current thoughts on the nature of god.

This is my starting point on the journey that Exploring the Spirit will document. Now that the baseline has been established, we can observe the evolution that happens along the way.